How to pregnant people glow? Seriously…
I’ve found myself a little down this past week, walking around with what probably looked like a irritable scowl on my face. I went with husband to his dentist appointment and the receptionist eyed me from the corner of her eye, I think out of fear that I might yell at her for some reason.
I blame it on the pregnancy hormones. Emotionally, it starts off with one sad thought and then spirals to a million other sad thoughts that fall under an emotional umbrella of everything that is wrong with the world.
I feel really unattractive. My feet are swollen. My hands are swollen and I can’t put my ring on. Getting out of bed is a process. I’m starting to snore to where I wake myself up and am not getting much sleep. I miss home.
It always comes down to that last point of missing home, fused the desire to be comforted to the -nth degree by everything familiar (friends, family, Elenos Yogurt) in the midst of all this change that is happening. Nothing else, no other thought seems to lift my mood – not even shopping for things I don’t need, or getting dessert. Case in point, the other day I went shoe shopping and found some shoes I would’ve bought without hesitation, but then realized my ankles were too fat to fit in them so put them back on the shelf.
I know, this is kind of a downer of an entry, but I was listening to this interview with Dr. Phil the other day and he was talking about how often times we compare and try to direct our lives to the masked fronts that people put up, illusions that are even more amplified on social media and falsely fucks with us mentally to get us to try to keep with everyone else
I’m just trying to be real.
On the plus side, I am comforted by the fact that it is only temporary and am mindful that these feelings are completely hormonal and that I should try not take it out on anyone like .. say… my husband. I am really blessed when it comes down to it (basically lulu-ing all day) and at the end of it all, when baby comes, I’ll probably forget all about all these feelings… and then want another baby.
Things I like this week
Space Jam Soundtrack – I was prompted to listen to this soundtrack when I saw this article that they’re releasing a Space Jam 2 with Lebron James. I youtubed the album and knew every song by heart.. That is how good it was . If you want a trip down memory lane, put the soundtrack on.
Ariana Grade Album – I don’t listen to albums a lot, but a friend suggested that I listen to it, and as much as I don’t like Ariana and hate to admit it – it’s a good album. Her album was on repeat last week. My favorite songs: “Break Up with Your Girlfriend”, and “NASA”, and “7 Rings”
Anyways, I hope everyone has a good rest of the week. Until next time…