Im 17 weeks pregnant today.
I’ve heard some people comment on my little pudge, others say that can’t even tell.
But I can tell. My pants are tighter. My shirts pop a bit at the belly. Forget about the skinny jeans. At this point, I’ve resolved to primarily wear work-out shorts and baggy sweats with elastic that have the most maximal stretch. My sexy lacy bras have been tossed to the side for sports bras to give support to boobs that have seemingly grown triple-fold.
I don’t like it.
I feel so uncomfortable in this changing body. For a brief second, I thought about doing those belly progression photos, but decided not to as in my head I was like… why would I want to document this?
You see, I had spent the past couple of years getting into my best shape. I was leaning out, toning up, I was starting to get abs. … Abs, I tell you! ABS!!
Now that my body is brewing a child, I’m finding it harder to let my fit-self go. I get that it’s all part of the process, and you can still be healthy while pregnant, but instead of glowing in my pregnant self, seeing this change makes me lament on how the healthy efforts of the past few years is just rapidly being offset, and I have start all over again.
It’s like when you work really hard and earn all the monies, only to pay a chunk of it to taxes. Although being pregnant is a better scenario, because as least you know you’re getting a baby at the end. It’s questionable whether our taxes are going to the roads… or the whatever else our politicians say our taxes go to.
But, it is what it is, and I’m only going to get bigger in the coming months. I mean, I did ask for this… it’s not like I didn’t know this would happen when the time came. I just gotta let it be, try to be the healthiest I can be while pregnant, remind myself that it’s for the greater good, and that when I get back into it, getting back to pre-pregnant self will be cake. Or so I tell myself that’s how it will work.
Anyways, that’s all for now. I hope everyone has a great weekend. Nothing much is going with me. Might see Venom? I don’t know, husband’s going to Spain next week and I will be riding solo for 2 weeks.
Things I like :
- Rishi Sweet Matcha Green Tea Latte Mix: I just bought a box of this, and it’s so good. I reduced the recommended boxed directions of 1 TBL serving to 2 Tsp because I couldn’t find a clear source that told me how much caffeine in a serving (and I’m only supposed to have so much caffeine) and it was still good. It gave a clean caffeine kick that made me feel more awake rather than jittery and it lasts the whole day
- It’s cooling down in the desert and going to be 70’s all week, which means … soup!
- Pumpkin Spice Lattes – When you live in the desert, it’s hard to remember that it’s Fall, because it’s still warm out. Starbucks’ Pumpkin Spice Latte’s are my only reminder that leaves are falling in other places of the country. Also, Starbucks in Target has 10% drinks on their cartwheel app, so even more of a reason to go get one.
That’s all for now. Until next time.