A few things have happened this past week:
1. Two of my besties delivered two little handsome baby boys.
2. My dad had a stroke.
I know, that just went from – wow, that’s awesome to …omg. Are you okay? Is your dad okay? It’s like I just gave you a lollipop and then slapped it out of your hand and ran away with it.
It’s crazy how one moment, life can be filled with the joy of new babies coming into the world, and then the next moment you are reminded that right alongside with that joy, there is the very opposite of that.
That is life, I suppose: it is roundabout never ending cycle of the good times and bad, of happiness and sadness. While I often find myself trying to only latch on to all the joyful things in life ( and trying really hard at avoiding even the thought of confronting anything negative) the negative is unavoidable. This much I have learned.
I have avoided thinking about my parents getting old for a long time just because – no one likes to think about this type of stuff. (shoot, one time husband mentioned how our dogs will no longer be with us, and I started crying at the bar we are at). But now, it has punched me in the mouth and I am forced to face the realities of it all.
Anyways, my dad is doing okay. As of right now, he’s in the hospital getting evaluated so they can have a rehabilitation plan when they dispatch him. As for me, I’m alright. Trying to keep calm so I can be logical and not make emotional decisions. I’m also trying to keep busy so I don’t dwell, but then find myself doing things like decorating my tree and I get sad because.. well, my parents were supposed to come for Christmas and now my dad won’t get to see my Christmas decor 😦
Ahhh, so sad. I feel like I should end this on some positive things….
A Seattle trip is on the way within the next month or so, although it’s for unfortunate reasons. But Seattle – I will see you and your rain and traffic- sometime soon.
I really like Jack Daniels Winter Jack… because it has my name in it and tastes like apple juice.
Husband has been really great in the midst of me being really sad, offering really good advice with what to do with my dad, and giving me really comforting hugs, ones that make you want to sink in and hide, even for just a little bit. What a guy.
Until next time….everyone have a good rest of the week.